Trust.

TRUST 

A glass ball that is thrown around by various holders. It passes from one person to another, in its fragile delicate state. It has the ability to shatter into a million pieces, and once shattered serves unable to be remolded. To hold this valuable ball even just for a few minutes you have to earn it, it’s like the jackpot at the casino. Very few are fully able to delight in it.

Trust is earned.

I'm not someone that trusts easily as I’ve had various experiences where I’ve learned that when you openly hand out your trust to someone, very often they will take advantage of it and you’ll be left with nothing more than a handful of trust issues.

I believe that trust should not be awarded to all and it should not be forced as it is something that should be seen as a prize rather than something that someone is entitled to.

As I mentioned in my previous blog posts, I recently became a legal eagle. I find myself wanting to do certain things that I haven’t yet experienced just so I can experience them and form my own opinions of them rather than learn from other peoples experiences, but I find that my parents are holding me back. It is frustrating as they feel as though it's okay to deny me certain things and treat me as if I’m a child when I’m growing up in a world where at the age of 18, many are called to be adults.

It angers me that they feel the need to reprimand me and spit out words that label me untrustworthy, irresponsible and unobservant; as I have proved to them time and time again that I am none of those things.

I don’t think that I’d ever be able to lie to my parents. I know this is on another level of cheesy but if I lied about where I was going I would probably be so paranoid that my dad would show up out of the blue and ground me for life.

I find that my parents don’t appreciate this quality that I possess, this faint need to be completely honest with them about everything. Unlike other children, I don’t lie about where I’m going, I don’t do drugs and I don’t hang out with dodgy people, I’m generally just a good child yet they still feel the need to keep me on a tight leash and treat me as though I can’t be trusted.

I know that trust serves as a basis for any relationship.

When it comes to romantic relationships I’ve learned that very often we carry over our trust issues from one relationship to the other. Even though we know that it is not right, we end up convicting our current partners for mistakes that have been made by our exes.

From my own experiences I’ve learned that once you fully trust someone, the love that you have for them knows no boundaries. When you gather up the strength to finally trust someone, I can vouch that you feel incredibly invincible. You feel on top of the world with that person and it feels as though you are high on life, living in cumulus clouds.

But what happens when this trust is broken? The invincibility that you once possessed is no longer existent as are the cumulus clouds. (Anti-climax eh?)

Anyways, as human beings it is generally a struggle to trust people, seeing as we are as messed up as we are. I do however believe that everyone deserves to be trusted until they give you a definite reason not to trust them. No one deserves to pay for someone else’s mistakes because it’s just that, it’s someone else’s mistakes.

I believe that if I tell myself this enough times, if I tell myself that “No one deserves to pay for someone else’s mistakes” over and over again, then maybe one day I will be able to put this into motion, maybe one day I will be able to trust without restrain and allow people the chance to make their own mistakes rather than be convicted for mistakes that have been made by others. According to Ernest Hemingway “The best way to find out if you can trust somebody, is to trust them.”